end of the month dilemma: paying bills

when i graduated last year, i couldn't get any job interview in either uk, sg, or my. so i decided to take a step back, applying jobs that were related to my first degree. yet, there was no any good news. it was tough for me because my one year studying on what i really like would have gone wasted. and, my career development was one year behind comparing to others 

after lepaking around for a month or so, i was being offered a job in pj. it was a bad decision. i cried every night and my dad's only advice for me is "忍". thank god this didn't last long. i quit after a month and went for another job in johor. i didn't give much thought on this because it was rather an interesting company to join and the salary wasn't that bad for a fresh graduate. the only drawback was, i need to settle down in jb

turned out i was right. it is an interesting and vibrant company and i met very interesting colleagues. but my first three months was quite chaotic. the job was too much for me. too much to learn, too much of communications, too much of technical studies that i have no idea, and too male-dominated. i went back zombiefied everyday and OT during weekends. my confidence level dropped everyday and i wasn't sure what can i contribute to my team anymore, like i was some sort of *flower vase*

things were slightly better afterwards. i managed to mingle around teammates and team leader, and projects given started to shed some tiny rays of lights, but it was good enough

and to my surprise, at this time, a job opportunity came knocking my door. it was from a company in sg that i haven't heard any news after sending in dozens of applications. i went for the casual chit chat sessions with hiring manager. it went extremely well at both interviews and i knew i would get the job.

so here comes the dilemma. they pay in SGD and the job scope is my forte, or should i stick back with current job to absorb more experience from everything

i decided to earn MYR instead because i love my country. LOL. well i have good bosses which inspire me a lot and have high expectation from your work. and he is cute and SINGLE btw. LOL. 

anyway, enough of the long-winded story. reasons i am blogging because i am all over the moon as my boss are happy with my performance, although in my opinion i have not done anything significantly great. 

till then